Pollyana Cowgirl

Different Realities

I was trying hard to understand what is meant by the term "different reality". People live in different realities. We were brought up with different values at different places with different people and ultimately face entirely different situations.

My growing up years and this life's experience of mine is nothing less than beautiful. In the true sense of the word, it has been a life that my parents have worked hard to give me, a life that I did nothing much for or earn. It was a given gift. Blessed with a happy family, a comfortable lifestyle, cosy friends and everything else provided for, I grew up in a reality of 'wants' not 'needs'. I had all my needs and only wanted more. And, more often than not, I got the wants without much trouble at all.

Nothing really fazes me because I never had to face dire consequences... somehow, I always manage to get out of messes, get over messes and never really had to pay for the mess. That is my reality.

My reality is devoid of reality. I have trouble when I try to describe my reality to others. Afterall, most of my friends come from a similar reality and I guess this recent toughie occured because I am trying to make my reality a part of his reality and vice versa. I am encountering a whole new reality that I have trouble understanding, I feel foreign, misunderstood and I can hardly understand. Perhaps I don`t want to understand.

How do you try to let someone into your world, when your world never did exist in their world?
How do you try to understand their world, when in the first place you don`t really want to be a part of it?

I am who I am, because of my reality. You too.
I miss having my reality.
I want to be in my world again so badly that I don`t know how to understand yours.

I recognise the symptoms. I want to go home. When I see the faces of those who love me, when I spend time with the people who have always been in my reality and doing the things that make me real.

I try, I will try and I have to try. The question of realities.
But,
when do you know if you have tried hard enough?

posted by Poot @ 1:35 PM